Woah. It's been a whole long time since I have blogged. I really want to try to get this down to a routine... it not only helps me organize my thoughts, but also will hopefully share with who ever decides to read- how real my life is.
I heard a comment today that I really was not expecting. Okay, I actually have heard a lot of these lately. But someone very close to me told me this...
"You sometimes can intimidate people."
I was really shocked to hear this.. not because I really don't think this could be true- but because my heart has no desire to show to others something that is not true. I am not better than you. I actually suck at a lot of things that you are fabulous at. I guess maybe from the outside, my life may have looked put together to a certain point. Oh gosh, let me tell you that this is not true. Over the past year, I have gone through a lot of life evaluation and refining of who I am and who I want to be. And I guess because I am a pretty public person, I express it through social media. Maybe I should become more private? I don't know- but this is my opportunity to be real with you- and to tell you that... just because someone, say like myself, has a certain perception on social media- does not mean they do not have struggles or trials- just like you.
I first want to ask for forgiveness to anyone who I may have deceived- making them believe that I think I am better than another. Deep in my heart- I love people. I have a desire to reach out and help people. I want to help even just one person realize that they can make a difference in this world. I don't know how, but sometimes I guess I just can come across intimidating in the way I express that.
So- to help reveal the real me- I want to hopefully start blogging on a regular basis.
To start out- here are some things about me!
-I get out of bed as last minute as possible
- I haven't worked out in 2 weeks- simply because of being lazy.
- I wear my hair up in a bun that's not even messy cute. It's just messy
- I wash my hair on average 2 times a week. Not because my hair doesn't like it, it's because I don't make time for it!
- I love cheesecake. And chocolate. Love.
- My bed sheets need to be washed. Like a long time ago.
- my house is always a disaster
- I am disorganized, and late to pretty much everything.
- I had post partum depression
- I lose and gain weight
- I feel bad for our dog Romeo because he hardly gets attention anymore. I feel like a bad pet parent. Lol.
- I love water- if that be ocean, pool, or lakes... it's my favorite :)
- I love my husband. Sometimes he can drive me crazy. I also drive him crazy. But I am so lucky to have him. He understands me!
- I am so grateful for Jesus. If it wasn't for him in my life, my life would be no where to be found.
So who knows who is actually going to read this, but I hope the people who need to will. and I just want to end with this...
I am human. I make mistakes! I am not who I want to be, but I also believe that I am becoming a better person than who I was. So, I will not pass judgment on you, please dont pass judgment on me :)
If there is something that I say or do that doesn't quite settle with you- please come to me about it! I promise that I will listen and hear you- and I pray that I can respond in the correct way!
I would love to do lunch or coffee or even go to the park with the kids with you sometime- call me or message me! I want to get to know you! And would also love for you to get to know me :)
All I want is for Christ's love to be shown through my life, that the good people see in me... they would know that it the only good in me- is by Jesus :)
Thank you for taking time out of your busy schedule to listen and hear from me! I would love to hear your thoughts :)
I don't have a cool or clever sign out phrase, soo...
Bye!
Brit
